i like how i keep up with my blogs :]

so basically.  right now.  i’m ill.  not fun.  i wish somebody cool would get on AIM so i could discuss with them the fact that i’m tired of feeling bad.

-i feel bad for everything i’ve said to people that made them feel bad [even including evan]

-i feel bad because i’m sick, of course.

-i feel bad that i haven’t tried to make a difference yet.

i want to make a difference.  i don’t know how, when, where, what, but i know i want to.

and now my mother is home and will be expecting my homework to be half finished.  it is not.

i hope you all liked your gifts.

i’m leaving for wisconsin tomorrow during lunch.

= sort of how i feel.

i got soohyuns presents and connies and michaels.  they’re all amazing.  except for michaels.  its too boring.  but i couldnt figure out anything else….

♥

i guess i need to explain to clare still.  that’ll probably make it worse though.

maybe i should just have marcus do it for me since i explained it to him and he understands it…

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i hated this weekend.

and when the sun begins to fade

everyone but i bade:

goodnight sun, hello shade. 

and when the moon began to rise

everyone else closed their eyes

and breathed their deep and heavy sighs,

while i sat and stared

thinking of the thoughts i shared

with all those people i thought cared.